Just Wish I knew
Daniel hunched over his desk,
raking his fingers through his hair. He closed his eyes briefly, only
to see flames flare in his head.
something I worry about, Sam,” he said once more turning to the web cam
turning toward her cam as he was commenting on the latest adventure he
had, checking reports coming in from the radars. “I wish there was a
way to figure out if they even knew you had taken over their minds. But
we all know Stargate’s unstable activation destroys everything
completely,” she looked up to see Daniel rubbing his temples. “I’m
sorry that I can’t just beam down there.”
Vala may come out and fight you,” Daniel said snorting. Vala had
irritated him months ago when they had first met, and her coming to the
SGC under false pretenses had not made her any more tolerable. She was
feisty and willing to go the extra few miles to make her claim on
anything known. “I’m just glad she is gone, leaving me alone.”
“Did you talk
to the General about it?”
that Jack was here?” Daniel asked, changing back to the original
sighed. Shaking his head, he told Sam what Jack had said when ever he
even brought the subject up.
“Hmm what was
I thinking?” Sam asked as she listened. “I’m sorry. He has not been
helpful in the past few weeks. I call his office and get his secretary.
I need to know if these samples are signed off on. We can’t just hand
them back – they want proof we looked at them.”
weakly. He watched as Sam moved off screen and talked to someone.
Daniel wished the cup of coffee on her desk were within reach. He
desperately wanted to share the cup. Sam had always been the one he
could unwind with and ask his serious questions to.
He had asked
Teal’c, on his way back to the Jaffa Nation’s meetings, but had not
gotten much out of him either. And Lt. Colonel Cameron Mitchell was
still so new he would be clueless. Which left him once more with Sam.
And she was stuck in Area 51, taking care of Cassie as she trekked
across the desert training for the New York Marathon. The girl never
ceased to amaze Daniel.
to Daniel,” Sam said gently as she imitated knocking on the monitor.
Hello. Sorry.” Running his hands through his hair once more he looked
at the woman who sat in front of him, miles away.
“I see you
have taken the beard seriously,” she said, changing the topic.
“Yes, I think
it shocked Jack when he came, he made a comment about the razor being
an important tool.”
he the kind and concerned one? I like it, makes you look distinguished,
not that you… oh why am I backpedaling? I like it.” Sam giggled as she
shook her head. Looking sharply to her right she held up a finger and
cut her eyes back toward the web cam. “One moment please.”
and mindlessly scratched at said beard. He had threatened many times to
do it. Jack would stand beside him every time it looked more then a
5o’clock shadow forming. He flipped one of the files open as he glanced
at the empty screen. He found it odd that it felt empty with out her
They had made
a habit of contacting each other whenever they could, making sure to
update in between via email. He was not sure what they would have done
if he had actually been able to make it to the Daedalus and off to
Atlantis. Part of him hated Vala and Mitchell for their interruption,
but as he talked to Sam briefly before the first adventure, and he was
calmer about it. But then the stones that transported him and Vala into
the bodies of two resistant fighters… shaking his head he picked up a
pen and began to lightly tap it.
He did not
notice Sam sitting on her end and watching him until she pushed the
button they had programmed to sound like a doorbell. She suppressed a
wide smile as Daniel yanked up his head and jumped back, clearly
said in a dark voice, sending a small shiver down her back.
said. “I wanted to complete our conversation.”
“I’ll be ok.”
at one another, a very familiar stance between the two. It usually
ended in them both talking at once. As they sat there, Daniel ended the
stand off by breaking into a grin.
“You have a
way about you ColonelDoctor Carter,” he said wagging his finger
playfully. “Ya it is bothering me a lot. I should have known Jack would
have given a sarcastic reply. I mean, it is Jack.”
“At least he
tried,” Sam said as she leaned on her elbows and looked at Daniel.
“Don’t try to
she shook her head. “No I am not. I’m saying he tried to understand. He
has never been good with the whole touchy –feely… but eating is what he
can do. I’m just saying him being there was his way of understanding.”
“It would be
a first,” Daniel said sarcastically. He sighed and glanced back to the
file that was sitting in fount of him. Taking the pen once more he
tapped and continued. “I must admit, it was fascinating to be in a body
of someone who lived hundreds of light years away. I mean it was with
the help of technology – again – but it was fascinating. I guess this
time they were not controlling me either. Which makes me believe we
these Priors – the Ori – don’t sound like the were that interested in
the people anyway. They wanted devotion, complete, and utter devotion.
If one less person who did not support their cause is dead, it is okay
“But it’s not
ok with me!” Daniel said leaning back in his chair and rubbing the
tiredness out of his eyes.
“What are you
going to do – what could you have done? Daniel, there was nothing you
could do. Colonel Mitchell and Teal’c were doing the only option they
saw they had.” Sam paused and waited for Daniel to lift his head back
up. “And I for one am very grateful. I don’t think I could have taken a
call saying you were gone again.”
weakly Daniel nodded. “I know. God Sam we were so close to the flames,
it was so hot, so real. It was real. I saw Vala die before my eyes the
first time. To see her like a charred...” He closed his eyes once more.
“It just makes me wonder if they felt we were doing the best we could.
To the village we were Harrid and Sallis – their friends and family.
But they were not there.”
silent once more.
“I did not
even feel them when Vala and I were yanked back to our bodies. I can
only hope they realized they died free… in the name, for the sake, of
their cause,” Daniel said searching the familiar blue eyes on his
screen. “I just wish I knew.”
“I know. It’s
what makes you such a great guy,” Sam said, her eyes sparkling. “Hey
noticed you don’t have your accessory piece.”
“Oh God, you
have been talking to Jack too much!”
was Teal’c who told me. And don’t tell him, but he used ‘accessory
piece,’” Sam said making quotes. “Dang, this algorithm is giving me
problems again. I’ll call you later?”
“We can have
dinner over the phone. How does Chinese sound?”
I’ll talk to you later. And Daniel?”
yourself a hug for me. If I’m crossing that way I will give you the
real thing. I’m glad your alright, it really scared me when Teal’c said
that you had gone into a coma,” Sam said notching her chin up, quelling
the tremble she felt inside.
Daniel did a
quick self-hug. “I’ll be cashing in with interest when you come back.
No ‘crossing that way’ stuff. I’m sure there will be some big disaster
that will require your physical help.”
“Count on it.
I’ll talk to you later.”
did a quick keystroke and watched the black web cam screen. He sat
there for a moment until he heard a loud crash and cruse. Sighing he
watched as Vala and a SF came running into the room.
this man is trying to ravish me!” Vala said in mock horror.
The only one
who was in horror was the poor SF who Daniel dismissed quickly. He
rolled his eyes and lay down his head, wishing in the deepest part of
his soul that Vala had not been resurrected.